So, Blood+ is now over at 50 episodes.
I am not happy with the ending, although some are pleased.
It's an ending that makes some shippers happy and others want to die.
Not happy. My fandom is ruined.
Damn it. NOT HAPPY!


And what the fuck happened with Ouran HS Host Club?!
Someone, like Kyouya, needs to beat some sense into Tamaki.
I'm afraid to watch episode 26 when it comes out.


I'm also a new fan of Innocent Venus and Nighthead Genesis.

-curls up and dies- I'm just going to pretend every episode after 31 never happened. That way, my fandom can live on strong. Stupid Blood+.

( Say no to drugs )

You scored as Kurotsuchi Mayuri. You're Kurotsuchi Mayuri, Captain of the Twelfth Division! You're the type that likes the scienes; biology and chemistry are probably your favorites. Sometimes people think that some of your interests lean toward the morbid side. This doesn't bother you, though, and you continue your pursuit of knowledge while pretty much ignoring everyone and everything else. </td> Kurotsuchi Mayuri 92% Ichimaru Gin 83% Yamamoto Genryuusai 67% Kuchiki Byakuya 67% Unohana Retsu 58% Soi Fong 58% Komamura Sajin 58% Tousen Kaname 58% Kyouraku Shunsui 58% Zaraki Kenpachi 33% Hitsugaya Toushirou 33% Aizen Sousuke 33% Ukitake Jyuushiro 33% Which of the Thirteen Division Captains (from Bleach) are you? created with QuizFarm.com

Mood: curious
Music: I wish I had an angel by Nightwish [Furuba AMV]

Hmm, so what has happened in the past couple of days.
Monday: Uncle Rudi flew in.
... Went to Sidney and got fresh fish

Tuesday: HAPPY BIRTHDAY OMA AND OPA!
... Went downtown; picked up Chinese Character Exercise Book; prowled about the inner harbor; went to the Dutch Bakery for lunch; stopped at a few beaches on the way home
... Cousins came over
... Had a BBQ of fish, bratwurst, and burgers
... Played pool with Melissa, Shae, and Derek

( rant )


And today I have no idea what I did. Uncle Rudi and I exchanged movies. Last night he watched my Unleashed and I watched Aeon Flux (ft. Charlize Theron and based off the anime) while they were out doing whatever. I also watched the first three episodes of Queer as Folk (from the first season) and did a lot of dishes and ate leftovers. It was really... unproductive. I printed off a bunch of character sheets from the internet and worked on flashcards for abit.

I got a copy of t3h high school transcript meaning Camosun probably got a copy of it too. I was surprised at how fast it arrived. It was issued on Sept. 15th and it showed up today - and that's with a weekend. Tomorrow (er.. today) I plan on going to the college and talking to a financial advisor before meeting up with Jolene.


Music: Click It's a surprise.

Okay, so I have a bunch more pictures to share.
Mainly of the garden over at Royal Roads University and a few pictures of the ocean view from there.

But to start things off, ( Mr. Snail )

( Flowers 'n stuff )

Zomg. The date.
( I wanna fuck you like an animal )

Aaand, I don't know what else to say.
Tomorrow I'm going into Langford and pickin' up some straight-from-Japan (hopefully legal) anime. My mom landed herself a job, she starts monday.

Mood: Giddy
Music: Ava Adore by the Smashing Pumpkins

1. a) Filled out Application for Admission: check
... b) Filled out Request Transcript form: check
... c) Find out Student Finance Info: check
2. a) Dropped off Application with fee: check
... b) Faxed Request form: check
... c) Contact Grant MacEwan: check

Year One/Two courses (@ here): Asia-Pacific
Year Three/Four (@ here): Chinese

[e.d.i.t. - this is for Winter term, as in - starting January]

Stage 3 --> Wait for rejection acceptance letters.
Camosun college is really small and has pretty low enrollment (I have no idea why, is everyone going to University right away? Or is everyone going to Vancouver?) so there's almost zero competition, especially for this program.



I am so nervous about tonight.
Everytime I think something positive I keep hearing Jason's voice.. "You have an okay body, almost cute, but you'd be even sexier if you wore a bag over your head." Ugh. Tonight, will smile, laugh, and make conversation. If she doesn't stand me up.

Oh! Tanya mentioned before that she's comin' up in November for my mothers birthday. For a week. Just recently she sprung "Andie is coming too," what the fuck? I hope tonight goes good. Maybe even mindblowingly awesome so I can spend a week away from home.

WHAT THE FUCK?! -pulls out hair- -foams- -dies-

ZOMG! OKAY! -dies again-

I was officially asked out on a date. Tomorrow night.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH WHAT AM I GOING TO WEAR?!

Okay, so here's how it all started:
( Lovi.ca conversations )

AND SHE CALLED ME TONIGHT!
It was so fuckin' awkward. She was rambling and I kept saying "though" - don't ask me why, I sounded like a complete and utter retard. So we're metting up tomorrow night. At a bar. She's like "I'll be the blonde in the green tank top with the black pants dancing up a storm" and my only reply was .. "I have no idea what I could wear to make me stand out... though..." -beats self with keyboard-

So tomorrow night.
I.. I've seen her pictures. She is cute.
She's gonna take one look at me and laugh.

My self-esteem is zero and despite me being prepared for rejection, i'm all psyched and jittery at the idea that.. there's this small chance that she might find me attractive.

She's like "Have yourself a goodnite" and I was like "You too, eh, have a goodnite though!" ... wtf? how uncool was that -dies-

So!! Tomorrow morning I'm dropping off my Application for Admission at the college (it's a uni. transfer program) and then i'll try finding the bar. Chances are my mom will drop me off and i'll cab it home.

A real date. I've never been on one of those before.
Strange city. New bar. A stranger of same sexuality...

-bursts from anxiety- Someone help me out here!
ADVICE IS NEEDED!!!!

Holy shit. I had the scare of my life.
My family and I went out shopping. We came back home. And guess who we saw on our front porch? MICKIE! Mickie was -outside- for the whole 2.5 hours we were gone. I've never been so scared in my whole entire life.

More and more missing cat posters are going up every day. Mickie has no claws. No collar. He is an indoor cat to the extreme. He was freaked out when we pulled pulled up, I dropped my bags and scooped my prince up and he was shaking and crying. It was heartbreaking. But then we went inside and he was all purrs.

... I am honoured and flattered that he stuck close to home instead of running away.


I am dreading tonight. My aunt, her boyfriend, his son, and my cousins are coming over after their school is let out. First Andrew has a job interview at Rona's (-snickers-) and then all of them are coming here for supper (we're ordering pizza), so Andrew can go fuck a girl over at the pool just down the street. I hope he gets a chlorine infection.

Riddle me this, how the hell am I supposed to keep the cousins entertained? I was gonna go to the lovi.ca coffee meeting but then I got hauled out for shopping and spent a good hour snuggling with Mickie.


Anyways. My Oma is sick again. With the same thing as before. If she doesn't get better by tomorrow then we're gonna go back to the doctor but it's very likely that she will have to go to the hospital.

Emotional rollarcoasters are not fun.

Go here for a cute fanart in memory of Mr. Irwin.

Oh! Should probably mention I have a good shot at being a Blockbuster employee. Dunno if this makes me happy or sad.

[quote] Nor did Mao want to be tied down. In a letter to a friend on 26 November, he inveighed: "I think that all men and women in the marriage system are in nothing but a 'rape league' . . . I refuse to join this rape league." He broached the idea of forming a "Resisting Marriage Alliance," saying: "Even if no one else agrees with me, I am my own 'one-man alliance.'"

One night, after [his lover] was gone, Mao was unable to sleep, and wrote a poem that opened with these lines:

Sorrow, piled on my pillow, what is your shape?
Like waves in rivers and seas, you endlessly churn.
How long the night, how dark the sky, when will it be light?
Restless, I sat up, gown thrown over my shoulders, in the cold.
When dawn came at last, only ashes remained of my hundred thoughts... [/quote] (p.23)

It's ironic because his lover, Kaihui, is a feminist. He doesn't want to get married or tied down and neither does she. She leaves every night after they have sex. After Mao thought of the poem, the next night he convinced her to spend the next nights with him; which is ironic because as a headmaster of the school he had to change the rules to allow all teachers' wives to be allowed to spend the night.
He cheats on her. She forgives him or more like blames herself. They get married. He continues to cheat on her (even with her cousin) but this time around she accepts his character and writes an essay on women's writes: [quote] "Women are human beings, just as men are . . . Sisters! We must fight for the equality of men and women, and must absolutely not allow people to treat us as an accessory."[/quote] (p.25)

Heh. This is also pretty ironic. Because earlier Mao was going on and on about how women should be able to look after themselves both in the home and in the work place. So of course he would've had to marry a feminist (this is his second wife, first one doesn't count).




Anyways.
My student loans started their automatic payments: $83.52/month. Bastards. I wish I was in a minority group and got free education. Well according to some people white middle-class is minority but ... 'some' is not the government.

I hope Mel doesn't marry this guy.
Warning: An illiterate bastard.
Conversation with him:

( ...you won't believe this when i tell you )


Goddamn. I don't see how Melanie could've put up with his bullshit for all those years. He seriously doesn't think of much of her.
.. Maybe I wasn't blunt enough but I thought my points should've been coming across pretty clear.

Anyways, I picked up Mao: The Unknown Story by Jung Chang for a little lite reading. What a treat. It's absolutely delicious, very thought provoking and easy to read despite all the history and politics. I'm not at the bloody/violent part yet, right now he's a teenager and just getting into communism by writing various articles for newspapers.

I could use some feedback on the fic I got going so far.
Maybe it'll look different tomorrow after sleep but I dunno, it's always nice to get feedback from people before I post it on a fandom specific site or ff.net O.o;

Fandom: Constantine
Summary: Gabriel strikes a deal with Chas. Our hero returns to life but it is unknown as to what Gabriel gains from their switch and by claiming his old wings. John's reaction is unexpected and their lives certainly aren't going back to normal. Balthazar enjoys playing with the two men and his intentions are questionable as always.

Disclaimer: I don't own Constantine or any of its characters. I'm not making money from this little fanfiction.
Warnings: Chastine. Post movie. Hellblazer ignorance.
Wordcount: 1,310

Chapter One: In which Chas returns

( Ch. One )

IAD
"Treatments include Internet "cold turkey", counseling, physical activity, antidepressants, and enforcement of strict regular sleeping patterns."


... How about not?
So. Here's my plan. Only use the internet to post fanfiction and to check up on everyone's LJ.

No more roleplay. If I have any desire to roleplay, I will use those ideas for fanfiction.
No more icon challenges. If I have any desire to make graphics, I'll limit myself to one hour in PhotoShop.
No more youtube. If I need an anime fix, I'll limit myself to 3 episodes a night (even if it is rewatching a series to get information).

I will limit myself to one msn addy and one yahoo addy; messengers will be turned off at midnite even if I'm in the middle of a writing frenzy and not going to bed and 'sleeping'.



... It's not cold turkey but there are tons of limitations. And it's not like I'm forcing myself to be out IRL. It's not like I'm addicted to the porn/gambling/relationship aspect of the internet... like this one website said, it's the socializing that's addictive.

Whatever. Other than that..
Been walking to the lookout point; "Arbutus Cove" it's called.

Yanked from Kris: ( 'nother meme )

Uwah! Today we bought a new bad-ass bbq so tomorrow we're going to test it out. Mmm, bbqed food. My salivary glands are in full-throttle already. Nothing much else to say.
Hung out with my female cousins and aunt today... Is very... disturbed.

( scars )

Anyways. That's the end of my rant.
I envy those going back to school.

Ha, I told my mom I was "asian-sexual" and she.. took it to heart. She's like "does this mean you like guys and girls?" and I'm like "no... this means I like asians!" .. she doesn't understand the concept -sigh- In some ways I was joking about that statement but I think in some ways it's true.

Hmm, what else?
Uncle Rudi is coming to visit soon. My Oma's and Opa's birthday (same day, different years) is on Sept. 19th and he's coming up on the 18th and staying until the 24th.

Mood: Frustrated
Music: Sugar by SoaD

( Danse Macabre rant )
( Photos )
Which of the following should I take?( Courses of Interest )

And now for our regular programming!
Hmm, I don't really have much to say. Things have been pretty quiet over on my end. When I was at the Bay Centre I went to a professional Tarot Card reader...

( Results )

I got new bed sheets today! FLANNEL!
I love flannel sheets. They're so warm.
I am angry at Rockstar: Supernova. How dare they get rid of Ryan Star?! -fumes-
Saw the movie Walk the Line, was extremely disappointed in it. Couldn't get into the movie at all.
Melanie broke up with her fiancee but got back together.

My new favourite book: Lives of the Circus Animals by Christopher Bram


Mood: Pensive
Music: Chrno Crusade AMV [Unknown Song/Artist]

01. Kai (Blood+)
02. David (Blood+)
03. Gaara (Naruto)
04. Keisuke (Initial D)
05. Sailor Jupiter (Sailor Moon)
06. Sailor Venus (Sailor Moon)
07. Danny (Unleashed)
08. Chas (Constantine)
09. John (Constantine)
10. Selene (Underworld)
11. Jules (Bend it like Beckham)
12. Maria (Roswell)

( the questions )
( The Room meme )

Choose twelve characters from your fandoms (anime, music, t.v., movie - mixed, anything!), then answer the questions under the link. Do NOT look at the questions beforehand.

When you fill out the meme, please put the questions behind a lj-cut as to not spoil the questions for other meme-geeks.

01.
02.
03.
04.
05.
06.
07.
08.
09.
10.
11.
12.

( the questions )

I'll post mine eventually.

So I also joined a Yahoo! Group for Pagans here on V. Island and it turns out it's based here in Victoria. I joined just in the nick of time because they have a meeting every Sunday and tomorrow they're going berry-picking, making pies and jam, and afterwhich they're having a potluck.

I've never been berry-picking before nor have I ever been in such a diverse Pagan group before. I've mainly been solitary except for a few times with Alicia and Matt (and Amber? I can't remember). So I'm pretty excited.

It seems like a pretty safe bunch of people but I've never done this before, one day introducing myself to a group of strangers and the next day going out into the wilderness and then into a private home. But I know that if I don't go tomorrow then I'll keep putting it off.

Wish me luck.

Oma is also doing better. She slept for most of the day but the medication has helped her immensely. Her colour is back and she's not doubled over in pain. Monday, she and I have a date to go shopping, ha, she's treating me to 'girl clothes' because she's fed up with my flannel and baggy stuff.

I also talked to Melanie's fiancee, he seems likes a pretty decent fellow. For their honeymoon they're stopping at various tourist towns on the way back to his hometown in the states. One stop is Vancouver. She and I made an arrangement to meet up whenever they get to the mainland... I have no idea what I'll get her as a wedding present though. Does anyone have any ideas? (Other than that question book for married couple, or everything you need to know about your spouse, or any other variations) ... hmm.

I'm also talking a lot with my cousin, Melissa.
Surprised? I know I am.

TOMORROW IS DRACULA FEST!

P.S. My character for _catchphrase_ was approved! Hurray for Miho [pinklayze]

Mood: Ecstatic
Music: Enjoy the Silence by Ryan Star (Depeche Mode cover, best remake ever on the show)

Is worried.
After being weeks in pain, I finally convinced Oma to see a doctor. They did some tests. She has an internal infection. She won't tell me where. She's currently getting a perscription filled. If it doesn't help within "48 hours" then she needs to go to the H.

Is angry.
If she would've gone sooner then it wouldn't've been this bad. We all got sick for about a week when we got here. Due to stress, the water, everything. But not like this. She waited too long to get checked out.


I bought some sandlewood incense and am going to cleanse and purify the house tomorrow. The nasties hanging about are annoying and we don't need this shit at the moment. I'm hoping a good smudging will help Oma to heal, I'm even thinking about giving her a Reiki treatment.


EDIT: Melanie is getting married on Sept. 23
-does the happy dance- Is extremely happy for her.

... and now I'm back to worrying about my Oma. Damn it. The only thing I can do is the distance Reiki, cleansing, and maybe get some herbal bags going. But that's nothing if she doesn't want to get better. What is she afraid of? I know how she feels about western medicines. I offered to make appointments with the doctor of TCM I found in the Pink Pages. Shitshitshit.

So I have my job interview in... 11 hours.
11:30am Thursday = Interview. Job. Job interview.

_{/freak out}

Hmm, nothing much else happening.
I signed up over at LoVI and am hoping to get a call from them soon. Moved two cargo van worth of boxes and random junk over to storage. Met with my aunt and cousins a few times. Checked out fall part-time courses at the UVic and College. Printed more resumes. Writing. Fanfic and original (gasp!). Applied for a new character over at _catchphrase_, we'll see how that goes.

Not too many people are fans of Noein. Tis sad.
I thought it would be a refreshing change to play an innocent kid, ya know, rather than the testosterone driven teenager.

So, well, I guess a lot of little things are happening.
Has been keeping busy.

Did I mention, I make the best Teriyaki Tofu with Fried Rice?
-sighs dreamily- Also drank this funky green-tea juice!
And banana/coconut bubble tea -another dreamy sigh-


Lovin' Victoria!

Mood: Good/peachie keen
Music: Noein AMV

Here we have the Butchart Gardens, Nanaimo, and Chemainus.

( Butchart Gardens )

And now... for my two most favorite pictures of the Butchart Gardens:
( suspense! )
( Nanaimo and Chemainus )

-takes a breath- And that's it for pictures. Everyone is now up to date.
The ladies at the Bed and Breakfast were delightful, they have my cell number and will call me with information regarding Pride things around the area. My Opa now knows. He overheard us talking. Things are awkward.

Aaand, oh yeah, I ran into quite a few teams from the Pan Pacific 2006 Games over at the Rec. Centre...
... Holy shit.
It was heaven.
China.
Japan.
Korea.
-dies-

Mood: Fanbooooi
Music Anime: Blood+ Ep 44

And random sidetrips we've made thus far. Forgive my lack of sidenotes, everything is pretty self-explanitory. Except for the plasterman.. that's a real man that... comes to life at random moments and then goes back to being plaster. And no, I don't know the gal getting her picture done - but a lot of people are doing that... walk into a business and almost everyone has their picture drawn by a harbour artist. And the cows in Edmonton are like the bears here.

( Inner Harbour )
( Neighbourhood/'beach' )
( Trip Two )
( De Dutch )

Next picture post = Butchart Gardens! And Choombs (whatever the name is) aaaand Parksville aaaand Nanaimo aaaand the Funeral Home aaaand whatever else. Oh! Probably my cousins too because I'm on my way to Sidney to meet them at the Ferry.

That's right. My aunt arrived today. We just got a call from her and they're on the ferry so we're going to meet them for supper. -sighs- Oh! AND OMG! Have I got the story to tell when I get back!

Okay, so this is a quick update between picture posts.
Quick as in... I'm leaving in a few minutes to visit the ladies ^.~
The lesbian couple that owns the Bed and Breakfast...

I'm hoping they'll give me some information about the community here and maybe some tips and advice about the B&B business. It's funny. I'm torn between two business ideas: starting a pet cemetary or starting my own bed and breakfast.

Already I'm looking into photography classes to keep me occupied with a non-computer hobby but like I said to ferris - it's hard to take 'bad' photos because everything here is so photo-worthy. But because everything is photo-worthy, there's not really any original photos that really make the photographer stand out. Especially if you're not into scuba diving or going up in a heli/plane. Ugh. We shall see.

( What do you mean, you're looking for a job? )

This is Mandy, signing off for a few hours. The second picture post plus updates on the ladies will be up late today. I promise ^.~

Warning: Massive Photo Post. Not dial-up friendly.
_{... Who the hell has dial-up anyways?}

( The Thursday & Friday/first day )
( Day Two )( Day Three )
( Day Three - Ferry )

Woot, this is the end of the actual journey.
The second picture post will be up shortly and that will have pictures of our little road trips on the island and neighbourhood and everything else.

Mood: Cynical
Music Anime: Ouran High School Host Club [Ep. 5]

I'm homesick.
I hear everyone yelling at each other, and I just want to leave.
But I have nowhere to go because I don't know anyone.
Or have change for the bus.

I miss Brian. Haven't talked to him in well over a month.
Damn him (that's right, damn you! -bursts into tears-)

I went to get my B.C. ID card because I need alcohol.
And I lost my Alberta ID again. I had it. But then I lost it.
Same with my bank card. Fuckers.

Surprise! My mother got me the three Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants books. I know, what a chick story. But I love it to pieces.
We're also having problems with our funeral arrangements.

I just want to... go out. Without family.

Ha, I find it amusing. My aunt is going to go berserk here. She was all excited... "Victoria and area is 93% white people!" (-bitchslaps-) What a fucking redneck. And so far most of the people here I've seen are asian. But maybe that's because I practically drool a river and let out a shriek "omfgwtfbbq ASIANS!" whenever I see them and I totally don't see white people. Unless they're like... standing and talking right in front of me. Or something. -sighs-

I want Edmonton.
I hate how all my creativeness is going towards RPing. I wish I could channel that energy into something useful, like, writing a fic. Or exploring. Or cleaning the house some more. Or something that doesn't require me needing to depend on other people to get a fix.


_{I... need a hug.} Is it wrong to cry?

Edit: Pictures will be up... eventually! Had some computer problems (namely photoshop freezing and my resizing was lost. Lesson learnt: Save. Save. Save.)

Mood: Cranky, bitch.
Music: Bite to Break Skin by Senses Fail (mmm, UnderWorld)

I'm back. It's taking me awhile to upload and resize all the pictures I want to show, so just bare with me for a post.

( Where were they going without ever knowing the way? )

What else can I say? That's about it for the trip.
Kai (mienaichikara) is caught up in his RPs and Storm (atmokinesis) got back into the game.

Got a new cell phone number, since, ya know, I'm in Victoria.


Isn't it a gorgeous number?

Tomorrow = picture post!

Mood: Frustrated
Music: Trust by Megadeth

Heh, last night was awesome. Special even. Thank you everyone.
This won't be the last time we see each other though, right? I mean... people take roadtrips and vacations. And we need to exchange home addresses. And there's still messengers and LJ and digi cameras.

Prepare for one massive photo entry!!
"The moving truck!"
"Mickie!"
"That's the 'now leaving Edmonton' sign!"
"Mickie!"
"That's the first tree we saw after the 'now leaving Edmonton' sign!"
"Mickie! and another Mickie!"
"... first squirrel we saw after ..."
"Mickie!"
"... first bridge we crossed after ..."
"Mickie! and another Mickie!"
"Here's the hotel we stayed at!"
"Mickie!"
"... Mickie!"
"... the bed I slept in!"
"Mickie! and another Mickie!"
"... the view from our hotel window!"
"Mickie!"
"... the pool we swam in!"
"Mickie! and another Mickie!"
"... Mickie!"
"... our first 'meal' after leaving home!"

Ya know... that's how it'll go. Has never been to B.C. before so there will be a lot of landscape photos. And photos taken from inside the car. Just... a ton of photos.

Memories of our last night together as a group will keep me sane. So when my mother is screeching along to the Bee Gees -shudders- in the car, and there's no where to run to, no other distractions to keep me from throwing myself out the window and becoming road kill... will think of BP and the walk. Will have the tiger and dice and Boop out on the dashboard to be a constant reminder.

Tonight, I finish packing and finish burning my anime. Tomorrow morning... the computer gets... -whimpers- unplugged. Technically Shaw is coming on August 1st to hook up our internet and digital cable (we're not going satellite again) and phone (free long distance, yo!)... but we don't know when the movers are going to be there - either July 31st or Aug 1st.. and then we have to unpack and put the desk together... yadda yadda. So, the third.

Thursday night we're going to Brewsters for supper and drinks.
(Anyone want to come with?) It'll just be my oma and opa, mother, and myself. So no huge crowds or anything. -takes a deep breath-

A meme I filled out somewhat seriously.

( 103 Questions )

Another long-answer, point by point meme.
( Onwards! )

-sighs- I think I'm trying to make this post as long as possible.
Kai, mienaichikara, should be okay. I gave my hiatus notice a couple days in advance and talked to the players Kai has direct interaction with... Mou, it's still going to be hard. Is already going into withdrawl.

-sniffles- I wonder if Brian is okay? (that was a hint, eh, if you read this then drop a line or email... and piiiictures!)

Anyways. Take care everyone.

Mood: Content
Music: Estranged by Guns N Roses

Apparently my subconscious has this mindset, under a firm belief, that if I don't pack my shit then the move won't happen. See, even admitting that out loud and typing it and discussing it with my Oma - I am aware of those thoughts and yet, I'm still not doing shit about it.

Rather I'm wasting my time reading hot and steamy yaoi and yuri fanfiction, making batches of icons, watching music videos, and taking online quizzes. I have... zero self-discipline. Zero. None. Nada.

Next week at this time, the movers will have finished packing and loading all of our things. In a week and a day, we will be on the road.
The thought makes me sick.

A week without internet. Fuck. It's not the actual internet I would be missing, more like the communication with everyone. I suppose a good thing to do other than take pictures of every little thing, would be to storm up some fanfic and rp ideas.

I don't want to go. I don't want to go. I don't want to go.

( Blogthing Results x11 )

Oh, did I mention I saw the movie Harold and Kumar go to White Castle? Ha. Fucking brilliant.


Mood: -mumbles- only slightly lonely.
Music: Lithium by the goddess Dilana -love-

Blood+ Icons for the 100icons community.
« I tried not to favour any characters and instead shine a little light on everyone (although I guess it's obvious David and Kai pwn my world).
« Newer icons (usually in batches of 1o) have bolded headers.
« Please credit if snagging, all comments are welcome.
« Textures, gradients, borders, etc. resources are located in userpro.

( Mattaku )


Mood: De-fuckin-termined
Music: White Trash Beautiful by Everlast

Out of desperation, I gave myself a Tarot Card reading.
I used an Elemental deck with a Celtic Cross spread.

The question... was pretty jumbled despite the whole grounding and focusing on a single thought or idea; it basically came out 'is this move a good thing? how am i supposed to deal with this? what's going to happen? am i really supposed to leave???' yadda yadda.

( The ten cards )

( Pictures of Spread )

( Thoughts on the results )

Anyways, Mickies vet appointment went super yesterday. They gave us strong anti-histamines for him, they'll make him tired and calm, but won't put him to sleep or have any loss of bowels or fuck up his stomach. Also three months worth of heart worm/flea/various parasite medication. He's a whopping 15.5lbs and a pretty healthy geezer. Still has perfect eye sight, a fully functional urinary system, and no signs of arthritis or diabetes.

I hate packing. Especially books and music. I've been going through my books and over half of them are staying out of the boxes because I have thoughts 'what if I want to read that? I've been thinking about reading it for awhile now...' So I'm trying to read as many books as I can before packing them away.

Shawnacey called today. We're going to be getting together again tomorrow. Che. Even after the reading, I still shaved and cleaned my room and all that shit one does knowing that something might happen.

( Bow before him, worship t3h Mickie! Or ph34r his wrath. )

Mood: _b_l_a_n_k_
Music: Zombie by the Cranberries

Yesterday was fun. I hate to admit it.
All we really did was laze on her bed, listen to music, and chat. Mou, I met her wife's kids though... There were some parenting techniques that I strongly disagreed with, but who is a guest to say anything? The dogs were nice. The house wasn't too bad - it was old, in a shadey area of town, but it could've been worse. My aunts house is a lot more gross.

I took the LRT, met her at the stadium, we walked to her place, yadda yadda. We dropped off the wife's lunch at her work (a liquor store) and... I was reintroduced to the cunt.
She's what.. 10 years older than Shawnacey? About that much. Three kids, two of which live with them. This woman is practically a slave driver - she won't allow Shawnacey to have friends over (she called every 15 minutes to check up on us), won't allow her to get a job, screws up Shawnacey's credit rating, got her involved in a shit hole with her own parents, and she's violent.

Shawnacey is regretting getting married in the first place and is thinking about seperating. I guess part of it is her fault for not checking into some major issues before tying the knot - like financial status. After she married the older woman, Shawnacey found out that Catherine had stolen over ten grand from her own parents - never paid them back, never asked forgiveness, and won't even talk to them in general. She is a widow (I have my suspicions) and gets Widow's-whatever-the-fuck-it-is Cheque for twelve hundred bucks a month. She also gets over three grand in Maitenence. And yet she's still in debt because they are shit-heads when it comes to investing, saving, and spending and all that jazz. So every other week, she sends Shawnacey to her parents place to get money from them because they're in desperate need of cash. They're constantly pawning their shit to seedy little shops downtown...

Yadda yadda. The animals are well taken care of. But the kids are a sorry bunch. Before Shawnacey was involved with Catherine, Catherine would allow her kids to smoke-up with her. Their clothes don't fit, there's hardly any food in the house (and yet the children are very much overweight), and Catherine believes in hitting her kids.

She's constantly talking about her ex-boyfriends (she was completely hetero before meeting Shawnacey) and even kept the sex-tapes of herself and the men. Apparently the sex life is non-existant between the two and Catherine was quoted of saying "isn't that guy hot?" just recently. Shawnacey is worried she's thinking about going straight again. Che. Yeah, so, Catherine is extremely obsessive possessive of Shawnacey and has been known to physically assault her friends if she suspects things are going on - even if things are one-sided.

Gawds, whatever, there's so much shit going on between those two. I guess she needed someone to talk with, which is understandable, but I told her exactly what I thought of her situation. I also told her that she shouldn't listen to me because I am extremely anti-marriage. But whatever. She's going to try to work at Fort Mac for awhile and see if Catherine straightens herself out while she's gone. If she doesn't - then she's gone. Catherine is already trying to get Shawnacey to move out of the city and isolate her even further - since Shawnacey's family is all in Edmonton at the moment and Catherine does not want her to go to her mothers place if shit goes down. There's a complete lack of communication on Catherines part even after Shawnacey told her to straighten out her act.

But it was awkward. Like I said, I have no problem against smokers - smoking is one of the sexiest things a person can do - I love the smell, lips, fingers, chemicals - everything... But I thought it was absolutely disgusting having a huge bowl of cigarette butts next to ones bed. If a person uses an ashtray - empty it right away. I understand the concept of butt-smokes, but seriously, just scrunge up a few bucks and go buy some bulk tobacco.

And we ran into her dealer at the bank. That was interesting. She says she used to have a huge crack problem a few years ago, but is now clean and only smoking the lovely Mary-Jane. That's when I asked about the kids (because I know my Aunt smokes weed in the house with my cousins around) and she said she doesn't allow the kids in the same room while that's happening. Although she doesn't mind if they watch her make oil.

Ugh.

She also talked about the person she was dating throughout high school, was killed right in front of her. Decapitated even. She also talked about the abusive relationships she's been in. She talked about how she was heavly into 'escorting' - Shawnacey told me that she wouldn't have a problem with Catherine fucking a man, as long as their relationship went back to the way it was.

Fucking pathetic.

There were a few times where I thought we might've gotten physical - but the kids always interrupted.

I told her about my family and I moving to Victoria. She then talked about her running military guns over into B.C.



What did I get myself into?
Things started a bit awkward between us but quickly got better... like, more relaxed and what not. And I had a couple moments where it felt like... our lives were connected somehow. Not like "love at first sight" or any of that love shit - but, something is going to happen.

So, I went to the theatres today. Guess what I saw? PotC 2
I have mixed thoughts about it... especially about the rating.

( Rant. Reviews. Spoilers. )

-growls- I apologize. My thoughts are erratic. Due to my anger at parents.

To quote Kai: "Mattaku!"

Speaking of Kai... I watched Blood+ 34. Don't tell anyone though; I'm a Bakakozou gal but I couldn't wait for their sub. After their release I'll delete this foul episode from my PC and erect a shrine in their honour.

( Rant. Review. Spoilers. )

Anything else new? Not that I can think of. I joined soccer_claims and claimed my beloved Oliver Kahn. Or, I put my post in - we'll see if it actually falls through; I don't see any reason why it shouldn't.

Speaking of my beloved, he will be playing in tomorrows game against what's-their-sorry-asses-called-Portugal. Ah ha ha. Speaking of that pretty-boy Ronaldo - I had a fangirl moment in the car on the way to the theatre. I could picture Ronaldo dancing his way to the German net, and almost going one on one with Kahn... he kicks the ball, it attempts to bend into the upper corner of the net... but Kahn jumps and catches it...

Heartbroken, Ronaldo bursts into tears (he's good at that!) and does his pouty face. Kahn puffs up and laughs - becoming larger than life... and then stomps on the Portugal player as if he was some tiny, worthless insect.

-whispers- Although... Figo... He's cool. -bitchslaps self-


I don't have any plans for the weekend except for the last two games and packing. Yeah. Should probably get started on that... And roleplaying!

Ororo jumped into the game!
Kai... is having a blast.

Plotting with Zuko (from the anime series Avatar: Last Airbender or something to that affect) to hook up Kazuki and Haji. Zuko and Kai sound like they're going to be having a fling, which is awesome... and -SQUEE- David's application was accepted so hopefully after the player and I both get back from our hiatus we can get things started with them.



NOTE: The BBQ is still on for the 15th of July.
So far people are bringing fruit salads, vegetable platters, baked beans, pastries of sorts, and... whatever else. We're supplying the burgers and hotdogs, possibly even the buns ^.~, and regular drinks.



Mood: Crazy... for Kahn! -cheers-
Music: Question 10 - Ask a Ninja

【BLOODPLUS ━ ・★・━ BLOG CREW ⇒ Amshel】


An update! Ugh, I've been so caught up in RP applications it's not even funny ^^ Naw, just kidding - only one atmokinesis (Ororo Munroe/Storm) took up many of my hours.

After much searching through LJs interest list, I finally came across an RPG community that seemed active and involved - they actually required you to know your character. The application was very refreshing. But the more I think about it, the more I realize how many times I could have screwed up - "I could've done that and that better!"

marvel_ous

On to RL matters.
My grandparents came back Sunday from V. Island. Filled out a few applications for rental properties, sent them back... and tonight we heard something back. We were accepted for a house over in Victoria - walking distance from the U of Vic even! It's in an awesome neighbourhood, the house is well-kept, and all that good stuff that makes everyone feel so much better about the move.

My grandparents are going back for a few days next week - leaving Monday to put down a damage deposit and whatever else. If this application fell through, we were actually going to look to buy houses over in Nanaimo...

I dunno what else to say. The heat is a killer.
And thoughts aout the application are going to keep me up all night.

You know you're addicted to RPing when... -shifty eyes-


Anyways, I'm treating my family out to Brewsters to celebrate the move and the finding of a house.

Brian came over -bursts into tears-
Now that he's gone I can cry.

I hope his vacation goes awesomely.

Speaking of awesome things, I was accepted to play the role of Kai (from the anime Blood+) over at _catchphrase_. It's a multifandom community, so if you're interested in RPing, please apply!

Because there is a lack of Kai icons:

Teaser:


[x5] Kai
[x1] Kai and Riku
[x1] Kai and Riku text

( KaiKaiKaiKai )

I don't expect anyone to snag these, but if you do, please comment and credit back to mandelhosen - I plan on using the Brotherly Love icon in my 100icons challenge.


Speaking of updates, my grandparents found a place they like about 10 minutes out of Sidney. Offers are being considered until Monday when the owners are going to make their final decision. Ugh. There are 12 other offers pending on that place so far, we're really desperate for a place. Our house finally has a SOLD sign on it but we're having difficulties finding a house on the island.

Speaking of annoying things, my neighbours have taken a liking to lighting firecrackers out in the middle of the cresent at three in the fucking morning. It's really annoying, since it sounds like gunshots and the military families are paranoid... Well, any sane person would be paranoid about potential gunshots - but it's still annoying as hell. Even had a confrontation with the neighbour about it and the stupid jerk only laughed about it, so I told him to have a little respect for his neighbours (and their sleep cycles) or I'd call the cops on him. Not only is there the sleep issue - but there's also the risk of fires since the weather has been so dry.


Reminder: BBQ is officially in 15 days.


Mood: Restless, insomnia strikes again.
Music: None, sound of the keys clicking on the keyboard.

So, I joined the community tarot_challenge and attempted to claim the fandom of Tsubasa (specifically Kurogane x Fai) but I have no idea if I've been accepted or not.

Either way, I started on some textless icons.

Fandom: Tsubasa Chronicle (anime)
Specifically: Kuro-pon x Fai
Resources:
¤ Textures and brushes - in user profile
¤ Screencaps - mandelhosen (me!)
Teaser:

I don't expect anyone to actually snag these, but if you do - please leave a comment and credit back to mandelhosen

( Kurogane + Fai = OTP )

Other than that - house hunting is still unsuccessful. Oma and Opa met up with the realtor and are going to scope out some more houses tomorrow, surprisingly enough they're interested in a few lakefront (or was it ocean view?) places in Sidney... Despite my warnings and retelling of the information given in the community.

We'll see how that goes.

The "Goodbye BBQ & Potluck" is still scheduled for July 15th; although, I expect the company to be mostly of my Omas and Opas and mothers friends.

Mood: Contemplative, thoughtful even ^.~
Music: Fast Car by Tracy Chapman

Brain: "Pinky, Are you pondering what I'm pondering?"
Pinky: "I think so Brain, but can the gummy worms really live in peace with the marshmallow chips?"

My Oma and Opa called from the island last night (they flew out yesterday morning) to report. The first day was unsuccessful. It's our turn to phone them tonight. We're being nice and splitting the long distance calls because, nyah, long distance bills suck. They checked out the two mobile home dealerships, but it seems most (if not all) the parks are 45+ so the hunt is turning to a bigger house for all of us to move into. I admit that would be awesome. All four of us (my grandparents, mother, and myself) used to live together before and that was pretty cool.

So, what did I do today in regards to the big Family Move?
... Absolutely nothing. I thought about packing some minor or kitchen items, but my body refused to move above a slugs pace. I thought about looking into post secondary programs, but I was distracted by the internet.

Random photos!
( To ease this precious ache )


Mood: Hot, hot, hot
Music: Come to my Window by Melissa Etheridge

Day one of the new Canon Powershot A430 Digital Camera and the first photo entries. Of course, I'm going to give the honour to my beloved, Mickie.

( Oh Mickie, you're so fine! )


Mood: Slightly ditzy
Music: I Ran (so far away) by A Flock of Seagulls